Archive-name: SpecMome/seeking1.txt Archive-author: Archive-title: Seeking - 1 The Beginning There comes a time when your mind becomes so loaded with experiences that you must tell someone about them to allow new ones to take their places. They become a part of your everyday life. They affect you in the form of daydreams, not allowing a moment to concentrate on the job at hand. At first they are no more than just a fast glimpse of a girl in your past. Quickly she passes, but give her a few moments, she'll be back. When she comes back however watch out! She is going to be more than you can handle. She will come to you in a form more beautiful than she ever really was. She becomes exactly what you want. Exactly what you wished her to be, whether it be an actual past experience or and experience you wished to have happen that for some unknown reason never did. But you know why they didn't happen don't you? You were too nervous to make them happen. To ask her to do something special to turn you on even more or to spend more time to turn her on even more. In your dreams everything seems to work out right doesn't it? She is putty in your hands. Doing everything your little heart desires. If your heart wishes to please her more than anyone else she will moan and groan and thrash and throw just the way you like. Wouldn't it be wonderful if all your daydreams were true? If you spend enough time daydreaming about the way you wish your past had been or the way you hope your future will be, you will find yourself in a situation where nothing seems to go right. You keep wishing for things to happen but they never do because you won't work hard enough to make them happen. You think because they work so easily in your dreams that it shouldn't be too much harder in real life. But it is. Let me tell you about some of my experiences and you decide for yourself if they are true or not. Some will be real experiences and some will be the things that I wished had happened. Most of it will be real but does it really matter? As a person is growing up they have, as all people do, their first sexual experience. I am referring to the first time that you come in contact with a girl. Most guys first encounter is usually a girl with whom you are actually experimenting. You may not think you are experimenting at the time but if you look back at it you feel very inadequate and tell yourself how dumb you were not to know what you were doing. That is how I look back at my first encounter. I was young and stupid but boy was it was fun while it was happening. My girlfriend's name was Linda. It's really hard to call her a girlfriend because it was really just a puppy love. She was very tall with long beautiful black hair. I say she was tall only because I was the shortest guy in the school. I guess it is all relative but she really did look cute anyway. She was by no means the most beautiful girl in the school but there sure as hell were a lot worse. It was toward the end of the school year when I first met her. My teacher had asked me to clean out a book room and sort the books by title and place them neatly on their proper shelves. Of course I was the kind of person that would do anything to get out of class so I spent all day sorting these books. After a while it got pretty boring so I asked my teacher if one of my friends could help me. It was not that I couldn't do it myself, I just wanted someone to shoot the shit with. My teacher, because that there was only a few days of school left, didn't care and said sure. In addition to getting my friend, he also brought along Linda whom he introduced as a friend of his. I didn't mind having an extra person to talk to so I didn't put up any arguments. We were busy sorting books and talking and the day went by real fast. By the end of the day, we had all the books sorted and in their place. I natural didn't tell my teacher because I wanted to milk this job for all it was worth. I told her we had more work to do and we should be able to be done in a day or two. We always left some books in a messy pile so that we could show her we were not yet done. The next day we started early in the morning doing absolutely nothing. We just sat on our asses talking. My friend, David, lit up a cigarette which at that age was a mortal sin to be caught doing, especially in school but closed in the book room we really didn't care. He puffed on the cigarette and the room became filled with smoke. Cigarette smoke always seemed to give me headaches so I laid down on the floor to relax. Linda said that she was tired (or so she said) and also laid down on the floor but unfortunately not near me. David said,"why not join the crowd," so he got up and turned off the light and then he also laid down on the floor. It was kind of hard to fall asleep on a hard floor so I just kind of laid there. As my eyes began to adjust to what little light was coming under the door, I noticed that David had laid down next to Linda and they had their arms around each other and were busy kissing away. This was something I had never done with anyone before so I got an instant hard-on watching them. After a few minutes, I saw David's hand slip down inside Linda's shirt. This was too much. I was really testing the stitching on my pants zipper. I really couldn't believe they were actually doing this. I really wanted to run over there and stick my hand down her shirt too. But of course, I couldn't do that it wouldn't be right to bother them so I just lay there until they were done. They never went any farther than that but boy what a show that was. They finally got up and turned on the lights and Linda recomposed herself and we talked for a while, sorted the rest of the books and then left the book room for our respective classrooms. The next day was the last day of school and we were too busy to work in the book room. At that point we really didn't want too. The job had served its purpose well. David and Linda were going out for pizza after school and asked me to come along. I said sure. I met David and Linda outside the school and we started walking to a pizza parlor not too far away. As we were walking down the street, David's mother drove by and stopped when she saw him. She called him over and asked to see his report card. It was nowhere near good and she started screaming and threw him into the car and drove away. There wasn't too much we could do about what happened and we decided that just the two of us would go for pizza. We sat and ate our pizza and talked about anything that came to our minds and over the course of the next hour and a half we became very friendly. As a gesture of friendship, and that's all it was at the time, I invited Linda to my house to go swimming. I didn't expect it but she accepted my invitation right away without any apprehension. From that point on, while walking to her house to get her bathing suit and then to my house, I was on cloud nine. A girl actually accepted an invitation from ME. The walk to my house took forever. I couldn't wait to see her in her bathing suit. We talked along the way, and I started to really like her. She was very nice to me like no other girl had been before. I actually got up the nerve to hold her hand. Boy was that a great accomplishment for me. I was so proud of myself. She let me hold her hand without giving any sign of discontent. We arrived at my house and we went inside so I could show her around. We found my mother working in the kitchen and I introduced Linda to her. I wasn't too sure what my mother would say about me bringing a girl home but my mother was very pleasant about it so I wasn't quite as nervous. I finished showing Linda around the house and then I took her downstairs to the pool. She couldn't wait to go swimming so I showed her the bathroom where she could get changed and I went off into another room to change into my bathing suit. After a few minutes Linda emerged from the bathroom wearing a super bright almost hot pink one piece bathing suit. It really made her look beautiful. It accented her long black hair. For the first time I noticed that she actually had a set of tits on her that very few girls in the school had. They were quite large by junior high school standards. In actuality, they weren't that big but they sure looked nice. I think that she noticed that I was staring at her chest by the big smile on her face. Before I could say anything, not that I could, she ran outside and jumped into the pool. I put my eyes back in my head and jumped in the pool after her. We swam and splashed around for about an hour. My pool has a slide and we had lots of fun going down the slide together with Linda sitting between my legs. I know she had to be feeling my hard-on because it was sticking her right in the back but she gave no indication. We played around in the pool until we were water-logged. Linda said she was getting out so she could dry off. Of course I followed her. We wiped ourselves off and then went back into the house to change. As we stepped through the door into the house, Linda stopped. I had no idea what she was doing but it didn't take me long to find out. She held my hand and gave me a big kiss right on the lips. WOW! I couldn't believe she did that. She just smiled at me and I noticed her looking down at my bathing suit and seeing a real big lump. I had the hard-on of a lifetime. She let out a little giggle and said, "would you like to see something real interesting?" Before I could clear my throat to say anything, she slowly began pulling her shoulder strap down her arm and then pulling her arm through it. Then she reached for her other strap and pulled her arm through it too. She was just standing there showing me lots of cleavage. I think I was drooling on my chest but I didn't notice. My eyes were glued to her chest. She slowly and teasingly began pulling down her bathing suit showing more and more of her tits as she went. She was going so slow that it seemed forever for one of her nipples to pop out from underneath her suit. I thought I was going to cream in my pants right there. Then her other nipple popped out. They were small and pointy. As the bathing suit came down a little farther, I could see the whole form of her tits. I was having trouble breathing. I couldn't believe all this was happening. She just stood there with an ear to ear smile, blinding me with her pearly white teeth. "Don't you have anything to say?" she said. "You leave me speechless, what would you like me to say?" "How about asking to touch them." "Can I?" "Go for it." I tried to raise my hands but I was still so stunned that they wouldn't budge. They felt so numb. Linda, then realizing my problem, took my hand up to her mouth and kissed it and then placed it right on her chest. For the first time in my life, I knew what it was to feel a girl's softer spot. It was an outstanding feeling. I felt her nipple sticking into the palm of my hand and it seemed to get larger. I was still a little spastic with my actions. I wasn't doing anything with my hand but letting it sit there. She said, "here, let me show you what to do." She pushed my hand away and grabbed her tits with her own hands and started squeezing and massaging them. She looked like she was really enjoying it. Then she started playing with her nipples, rolling them between her thumb and index finger. They just seemed to get even bigger. Then she said, "now why don't you try." I placed both my hands on her chest and started squeezing her tits. It was fabulous. They were so firm. I couldn't believe it. I stood there playing with her tits, doing what she did, rolling her nipples between my fingers. She loved it. She actually let out what sounded like a little moan. I was in heaven. After a few minutes of playing with her tits, she appeared to be really getting turned on. But then what do I know at that age. She said, "let's try something different." She put her hand behind my neck and pulled my head right down into her chest putting one of her nipples right into my mouth. "Suck on them" she said, "suck on them like you would want me to suck on your cock." I sure as hell didn't give her any argument. I started sucking on her tits as if my life depended on it. I went from one to the other. Back and forth. I even got real daring and started squeezing her tits while I sucked on them. I kept concentrating real hard on what I was doing so I wouldn't appear like I didn't know anything. I kind of figured she knew that anyway. I kept sucking and squeezing. I couldn't get enough. They tasted so good. She shocked me when she lifted my head up. She made me feel like I was doing something wrong. I asked her if I could help her get changed. I meant it to be sarcastic. I didn't expect anything to come of it. "No thank you, I think I can do that by myself. But there is one thing you can do for me. Here, hold this." Like a flash she dropped her bathing suit to her ankles and stepped out of it. There was this beautiful bush staring me in the face. She picked up the bathing suit and handed it to me and said, "how do you like it?" "The bathing suit?" "No silly, that's not what I'm talking about." "It's real nice." "Would you like to see it a little bit better?" "Sure." She took me by the hand and led me over to a chair. "Promise me you will stand right here until I say you can move." "Sure, anything you say." She sat down on the chair and gave me a real big smile. "Promise me you won't tell anyone I did this." "Of course not" I replied. She leaned back and spread her legs putting them over the armrests. What a pussy! It was pink and real wet. Just like the ones in those magazines my father has. I was just standing there in complete shock. She put her hands between her legs and started rubbing. She said, "have you ever seen a girl's pussy before? Do you like it?" "No, yes" "Make up your mind." "It looks wonderful." I just stood there staring between her legs. Her breathing began to get heavy. I began rubbing my dick through my pants. Linda noticed and said, "why don't you pull it out where I can see it." I pulled my hard-on out without any hesitation. She continued rubbing her pussy without missing a stroke. She said, "step a little closer so I can get a better look. I did as she asked. To my surprise, she grabbed on to my cock with her right hand keeping her left at a steady pace. She started stroking me. What a feeling. I could feel myself coming. I knew it wouldn't take long because she had me so worked up. "I want you to come on my chest." "No problem, here it comes." I shot my load all over her chest. I felt my knees begin to give way. I could barely hold myself up. She began rubbing it into her chest but never stopped massaging her pussy. By this time. her pussy was soaked. She put both hands back to work and said that now it was her turn and she wanted me to just sit back and watch. I sat down on the floor right in front of her just watching her go at it. She began huffing and puffing all over again. She started rubbing faster and faster. After only a minute or two she let out a moan or a groan or what ever the hell it was and she started to jerk and shake wildly. Her legs went up into the air. After a few seconds she finally calmed down and put her legs back together and her feet on the floor. She threw her head back and just seemed to want to relax. "Boy did that feel good. It has been a long time since I came like that. I love playing with myself in front of guys. It really turns me on." "You can do it in front of me anytime." "I think it is time to get changed now." I was disappointed because I was almost hard again but I knew she was right; it was getting late. "I am going to get changed. I'll be right back." With that she turned and stepped into the bathroom. What an ass she had too. A minute or two later she came out of the bathroom all dressed. I was kind of disappointed but I didn't really know what to expect. Linda said that she had to go home for dinner, so I, being the gentleman that I was, walked her home. I was in a daze the whole time we were walking. I was holding her hand and thinking about all the things that had happened. We arrived at the front of her house and stopped at the door. She said she had a wonderful time and hoped that we could do it again in the near future. I again became speechless. She gave me a really big kiss, said good-bye and stepped into her house. I ran home as fast as I could just thinking about what she had said. I ran into my house and headed straight for the bathroom to jerk off. What a day it had been. To this day that event has haunted me. Every time I am sitting in class, Linda pops into my mind and I go through that afternoon over and over again. Each time is almost as good as the first. I didn't see Linda for several years. Her father was in the Army and was transferred a short time later. That sounds like bullshit but that's what really happened. My first experience came to an end rather abruptly. /// continued in Chapter 2 /// --